Its time for REINVENTION.
There's a Hole in My Sidewalk By Portia Nelson
I walk down the street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I fall in. I am lost... I am helpless. It isn't my fault. It takes forever to find a way out.
I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I pretend I don't see it. I fall in again. I can't believe I am in the same place. But, it isn't my fault. It still takes me a long time to get out.
I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I see it is there. I still fall in. It's a habit. My eyes are open. I know where I am. It is my fault. I get out immediately.
I walk down the same street. There is a deep hole in the sidewalk. I walk around it.
I walk down another street.
When I first read it, I imagined it reflected the way I had been living in the past. I thought I had changed. And I have. Yet I still notice myself coming up against the same walls, falling in the same holes, getting caught up in the same things, feeling the same frustrations, arriving at the same dead ends...
With every change, my comfort zone grows. New things that were once scary become options I can choose. Yet I’ve noticed that these new options often settle themselves into my old ways of operating. The old pattern emerges with the new thing.
For example, dreaming big was not something I used to do. In the past couple of years I have stretched outside my comfort zone and chosen this. First, I chose with fear and hesitation, and then, more boldly and comfortably. Not too long after, however, I let the new thing settle into an old pattern. My big goals became “have tos” and “shoulds” and I started to feel overwhelmed. I had to find an entirely new way of being, a different place to operate from, before the big goals felt any different than the old small ones.
The same is true with this blog. I hate to admit it, but it is often something I do because I have to. I do enjoy it, but excitement, passion, and love are often not the things that drive me to flip open my laptop and start typing. I have had resistance to posting on here for the past couple weeks, and have avoided thinking about why by making myself “too busy” to do it. The truth is blogging has fallen into an old pattern. I have lost touch with the excitement. I have let my "why" slip away little too far.
I have not forgotten my why completely. I can still see it out there. When I stop, take a deep breath, and close my eyes I can still feel my love for this blog and all it stands for. All I stand for. I just need to get reconnected. To remember the passion that had me start this blog in the first place. To remember who I am, and how I want this blog to express that.
I have been making a lot of changes over the past couple years. Not just surface changes; I have gone deeper. I have been working on reinventing my core ways of being so that I can choose without limits. So that the new things I choose do not simply fall into an old way of operating. This blog is evidence of that journey. This blog was the beginning of the end of “acceptable me” and the beginning of the beginning of the “REAL ME”, fully expressed in the world.
While I have made small changes to my blog since starting out just over a year ago, I have not shifted the core ways of this blog. It is time to dig a little deeper. It is time to shake things up and burst through the predictable walls. It is time to walk down another street.
It is time for REINVENTION.
For the next month I will be working behind the scenes on TYS reinvention. If you have subscribed to my newsletter you may still receive updates from TYS on upcoming events (like the 10 day wellness challenge coming up June 16 -13, 2014!), but new posts will be few, if any.
I will be back soon. For now, I am getting reconnected with ME and remembering my why, so I can continue to create this blog with passion. I am digging deep, dreaming big, and reinventing TYS from POSSIBILITY!
Before I sign out I want to express my deep gratitude for the possibility and connection I have had the opportunity to create through this blog. Sharing my story with all of you has helped me to remember who I truly am, and how to step into my greatness. It has helped me to create a life that I absolutely LOVE!
Thank you all for being a part of my journey this far. I hope it has, and continues to be, your journey as well.
Time to take this possibility to the next level!
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